Wednesday, November 10, 2004

meeting with Wednesday...

Irvin had a meeting with Wednesday, our wedding coordinator, last Sunday. She is currently negotiating with Charles Villanueva and Nelson Villarica. Their packages are kind of pricey and definitely more than what we have budgeted. She said she’ll also be meeting Dino Lara. Based on the posts of some w@wies, he’s also expensive. But we’ll see… Anyway, I have requested her to check on Mimi Abesamis and John Mateos Ong. We have already inquired from them before and what we need now is to see the actual products.

Wednesday also asked about the entourage gowns. She said Beng, the gown-maker that she referred, gave a quote of P2k for each gown. I’m still clarifying if this will be uniform for all MOH, SS and BM. I have sent Wednesday some gown designs from the internet. Basically, I want to have some variations for the gowns. They will have the same cut and length of skirt but with different designs of bodice (top). I am still waiting for an update on this.

I really want a rust orange motif. But she’s suggesting to have an accent color. I don’t mind the idea at all. But right now, we can’t decide yet which is which. We can have another color as part of the gown but I still want the rust orange to be the dominant one.
- faye

'Cold feet'

A w@wie who’s getting married in 3 weeks posted something about what they call ‘cold feet’. I really didn’t know what that is at first. Then, as I went on reading the e-mail, I found out that it has something to do with a soon-to-be-married person’s fears. A lot of other w@wies gave their pieces of advice. I didn’t anymore express my sympathy though I really feel sorry for her.

Her post actually made me think. A lot of questions came in to my mind. Why am I not experiencing that? Is it because it’s still 11 months away and I don’t feel the pressure yet? Is it because I have already conditioned myself to the fact that I’m getting married? Am I marrying the right person? Am I really ready for this lifetime commitment? Am I afraid to lose my individuality and freedom?

It’s been exactly 10 years, 9 months and 2 weeks from the day that I gave him my ‘sweet yes’. I haven’t visited home for 2 years and 8 months now. Having been in a relationship like ours is never easy. We’ve been through a lot of things – good and bad alike. We’ve had the worst situation you could ever imagine. During those early years together, we were not really traveling to places. We were not even going out that often. Going to church, dining out at a restaurant, once in while going to the theaters and most of the time staying either at our house or at his has become a routine. The only places that we’ve been to if I remember it right are Tagaytay (which my parents don’t know) and Puerto Galera. Sometimes I ask myself why. Well, I have strict parents and that’s already given. But my Mama sort of gave us the freedom to do whatever we want to do after graduation. I can’t also say we don’t want to do it because we both love to go to places as far as I know. Why then? I don’t know. I really don’t. But having a good relationship will not just be based on that aspect I believe. I can proudly say we know each other pretty well. We’ve learned a lot from each other and we still are.

Am I really marrying the right person? YES! And even if you ask me over and over again, my answer will still be yes. Irvin is a very nice person. He is not the showy type but is definitely sweet in many other aspects. He is not much of a talker either but very sensible when he speaks. He always thinks of me first before his own self. He is very responsible and I’m pretty sure he can be a good provider. He is a home body type of person and very family-oriented. This is basically the reason why we’re getting into fights lately. For the longest time that I’ve known him, I never met any of his high school friends and now that I’m miles away, he goes out with them and stays out late. It’s not that I don’t want him to enjoy but it’s more of I don’t know who’s he with. The worst is he goes home really late. Oh well that’s another story. But in fairness to him, I know he’s just trying to have some fun and he knows what he’s doing for sure. One thing that I don’t like about him is that he will keep everything (especially problems and negative sides of things) to himself. He wouldn’t want to give me something to worry about…to think about. He will try to resolve it by himself as much as possible. Bottom line is I always tell him we should share both the positives and…the negatives. That’s basically the reason why we have each other.

Am I losing my individuality and freedom? Yes and No! It really depends on how you look at it. In some ways, I will have to consult my other half or maybe I should say it’ll be a two persons’ decision especially if we’re talking about the family that we are trying to build. It is a part of being married. Two people are being united in marriage to become one. You can’t just have your own perspective in everything. Before I even decided to marry him, I have already thought of the many possible things that marriage will change. It’s not anyone’s responsibility but ours…both of us will be responsible in making our married life happy. On the other hand, marrying him will not mean that I’m leaving my own friends…that I can’t anymore do what I want…that I have to be with him all the time… that I can’t anymore buy things for myself. My friends could also become his friends. I could still go out with my friends in the same way that he also can. The only thing is there are limitations. There are a lot of things to be considered.

Marriage is a lifetime commitment. It is a gift from God. It is the best thing that you can share with your loved-one. All I can say is I can’t wait to walk down the aisle, be married to him and be with him for as long as I live.
- faye

Wednesday, November 03, 2004

Irvin met Veluz for the 1st time...

Irvin has met Veluz earlier at 8pm. She called him last Sunday and they have agreed to meet today but the time wasn’t clear enough. He tried calling her this afternoon but was told that she went to the shop in Malate. Then, he can’t contact her. At first, he thought she forgot about the meeting but he later found out he has a text message from her.

Anyway, Irvin said he finds Veluz very friendly. He hasn’t even come in the gate yet and she already said ‘hi, Irvin!’ He said she’s fun who just talks about a lot of things. She even said that she knows he doesn’t know anything about these stuffs. Ha ha! What can you expect from guys, right? The important thing is I will look pretty in that dress in his eyes. Hmmm… He has seen a gown that she made for an exhibit though it was pink in color and with beadwork design only. Also, swatches were shown to him. He said he finds them nice. And he now has an idea how the ethnic embroidery design looks like. Irvin has paid Veluz in full to avail the discount. She, in turn, will send the portfolio to me (the contract, swatches, sample of embroidery, measurement guide, etc.). And as usual, Veluz said ‘ingat’ (take care) when Irvin left. This is the very 1st good thing that I noticed about her.

Veluz sent me the working schedule via the e-mail. She needs to have my measurements by February 20 next year and we’ll go from there. I’m very excited though I’m kind of having a hard time losing weight. The thing is the more that I tell myself to refrain from eating too much especially sweets, all the more that I’m craving for food. Haay… We’ll see…
- faye